My Invisible Mask

2006-08-09T01:20:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday Singapore! Hahahahahahah! You are now 41 years old...

Enough with that...

I, i repeat, I have NOT, been getting enough privacy! And i'm going mad about it! Everywhere i turn, i'd either see my mother, father or sister.

LEAVE ME ALONE EVERYONE AT HOME!

What's worst, is that the stupid computer is at the dining room. And at the living home you can almost like, see whatever i'm doing.

I know they won't be looking but i still can't help it right!?

And it's always the same.

"Mei! Turn down your music!" (It ain't my fault you're getting old and dun like loud music right?)

"She always listen to the same song." (So what! I like to listen to the same songs, got a problem then talk it out with me.)

And so on and on...

I really am going mad. Bah. I remember yesterday, i came home at around 10am after the celebration.

Poof! Everyone was at home...

I want to go mad (as usual) and go mad and start squealing and laughing loudly at the fanfics i read but.. -.- they'll think i'm mad or they would..

"So funny har?" (Not in the bad way but still annoying)

What's bad is when i listen to my music and my dear darling daddy dearest whistles along. Whistling is high pitched and ear piercing and music destroying...

In fact, i've never got any privacy for a while...

My room can't lock its stupid door and now even little things are making me angry.

Like my mother slurping whatever she is eating. It's still just annoying.

Half of me can't wait to move out and maybe live in a flat that i can do whatever i want... (Btw, i so do NOT blast my music so loud!)

So yeah, i'm going mad soon. Or probably already am.

So, i'm doing with my rants and complains... for now.

2006-07-14T00:15:00.000-07:00

Ai ya.. put so many photo until i sian. Tis is the last one! ME AND MOI SAMAS! XDDDD But too bad we standing wrong place, the wind beri strong... ehehe.

2006-07-14T00:14:00.000-07:00

Yeah!!! I like this one alot! XD But.. why are we seperated in the middle? ><;;; -Wei ahli, biting papa's hand wor!

2006-07-14T00:13:00.000-07:00

We are family~~~! Dum dum dum dum dum dum...! Lol, starting from the left, mama, my sis, me and then papa.

2006-07-14T00:12:00.000-07:00

"Notice" my papa! XDDDD Kya kya kya!

2006-07-14T00:11:00.000-07:00

I like this one too! Close up! XD But *gasps* Where is auntie and Eileen sama?!

2006-07-14T00:10:00.000-07:00

Tis one was funny. The wind was blowing alot yeah... and we were like, 'Hurry take the photo!' XDDDDDD -Notice how our hair blows in one direction

2006-07-14T00:08:00.000-07:00

Personally, i really like this one. See! Papa is on herself! Too bad the turtle isn't golden in colour... hohoho~

2006-07-14T00:07:00.000-07:00

Yeah! Yesterday was papa's birthday. Papa.. the one behind me! The one on the -us facing the computer- left ^^ First picture we took!!

2006-07-14T00:04:00.000-07:00

Yeah! And this is MOI COUSIN! Wahahaa.. he would kill me if he knew i put his photo here... Bwahahaha... what he doesn't know can't hurt him. >:DD

2006-07-14T00:01:00.000-07:00

Then this my two cathercist! Did i spell that right? Hhhhmmm... keke, go Jolene and Gery! You two rocks! XDDD

2006-07-13T23:57:00.000-07:00

Yay! Confirmation pictures time! ^^ Seeee moi and moi friends. Not all of them thou... can you guess which is me? XDDD

Confirmed!

2006-07-09T02:27:00.000-07:00

Yeah! I'm finally confirmed! Finally, after three and a half-years of waiting! I'm finally confirmed!!!!!
Kekeke... i won't post the pictures till i get them into my computer.
When Archbishop Nicholas Chia annointed me with tha powder thingy, i was sealed! Wooho! ^^

The annointment smelled really nice. Really nice an' sweet. Keke...

Hope i don't forget about joining 'Maranatha' prayer ministry. Cause i don't wanna forget my youth in church XD

Wahh...

2006-06-22T20:43:00.000-07:00

Oh crud, on sunday is the rehersal for confirmation! AAAH!!! *screams and runs aroud* I'm wearing a DRESS! Goodness, a DRESS!!!! A white pure dress!!! What possessed me to tell me mother that i wanna dress!? What POSSESSED ME!?!?!?! *regret regret regret*
Of course the dress is nice ^^ But it won't look nice on me! I tried it on remember!? Sigh, how how how, i dun wanna wear it! But i really have no choice ne =.=; since its bought already... sigh. Heng i wearing a jacket ^^ A white one too... oo oo and white shoes. They're high heel -.-;; So i'll be a little angel in white ^_________^ .... blueh... Ooo high heel! I remember when i tried THOSE on... i walked around the shop abit.. then after that... my leg was pain XDDD
I wanna stay as a kid forever and ever and ever!!!! I don't wanna grow up. *sob*

AND SCHOOL HOLS IS ALMOST OVER!! Die die die.. still got homework haven't do XD
AI ya, don't care la. Must enjoy life as it lasts!
Ja~

2006-06-16T00:02:00.002-07:00

Yay! I changed my skin! Hope its better... ehehehehehehehehehe! *madness* *runs around then bams into wall* *HiCcuPs* Whoops~

2006-06-16T00:02:00.001-07:00

Yay! I changed my skin! Hope its better... ehehehehehehehehehe! *madness* *runs around then bams into wall* *HiCcuPs* Whoops~

Kekeke

2006-06-03T00:23:00.000-07:00

Yay! New skiN! I kinda added some additions like the music and stuff... i hope the maker doesn't mind ><;; But me likes! And i learned some new stuff!!!

Ehhh... the problem is that now i can't really put huge pictures since the page for words is so small... *sighs*

Looks likes i have ta change it again.. oh well, another time! XD

2006-05-31T02:46:00.000-07:00

Have you ever felt... that when you think nothing can get you down even though you put up with it and even though it is a big deal... and yet, someone just says one word or sentence and it all comes back crashing down?

Yep, thats how it felt yesterday. Got back my stupid results. Failed all but one... yeah yeah... but its all borderline ma!!!! 47 48 49... bleuh.

So i actually felt okay... it didn't hurt that much. And yet, one of my kin just had to say one sentence and it all comes back crashing down. Comes the hating comes the pain comes the hurt...

But hurt is something that you WILL have to experience if you open your heart to someone... i suppose thats true. In change you get friendship, kindness and someone who cares for you.

-Crying is something that has to be done-Just make sure no one knows that you are.

Whoa... Awesssomeee!

2006-05-28T17:06:00.000-07:00

Everything, well almost everything changed yesterday... Yesterday was like.. whao... ><;

Well first off, i didn't know i had to pray for my spirit/soul... but i guess its never too late to start ne? Well i'll start!!!! *determination*

And well, i guess i never had real hatred in my heart before but i did have dislike... and well, that sure cured all of it for him! ^_^ Now if my parents and sis say anything i'll jump to defend! I'm not gullible. I'm sure what he said was the truth. It's no wonder why he won't tell them. Even if it is fake, i don't think i'll get angry. =)

Besides, hearing other peoples experiences is awesome! He almost let go and he'd probably just go! A light brighter than the brightest light seen... A sudden feel of happiness, wholeness and peace that no word can describe. I think it makes sense. Even if it doesn't to some people... *herm*

I now know i still have so much to learn... It's kinda hard to explain.. part of me is saying that its just fine sticking to the reading and prayer and the more... normal things. The other half is jumping around saying "Oh yes! I wanna experience more! I want a physical feeling! A bond!" Etc...

Next, my musing... 'I wonder whether my guardian angel is a girl or boy...' Not that it really makes a difference but i still wonder don't i? XD

Now i better learn that even though their outside is kinda irritating and annoying, they have knowledge on the inside that they are willing to share. Don't look at the outter cover but see beyond that =)

HO hum...

2006-05-24T01:54:00.000-07:00

Hmm... well this is long. I haven't blogged for like, a year or so. XD Okay, maybe not that long. This was supposed to have CLOSED! But in the end i decided not to... none of you all probably come in anyway so. XD

Well... i was busy with moi livejournal. Not going to tell what its called as it is used for moi fanfics and updates and blahz... not to mention groups. *crackle*

Herm... i think i better make this clear. Anyway who comes in,

1) If you are a homophobic then... get out. We don't see eye to eye...
2) If you don't know what that is... nevermind. 'Cause i'd probably won't talk much about that anyway...
3) Scared of fangirls? Then you better not get to know me.

Herm, get kidding actually. Kekeke....

Wahahahah! No one will come here EVER! *sighs*

One of the main reason i came back was because, well, i need ta have a life. *swts*

*laughs*
Remembers about the fanfic i was reading just now... "Your master has a stick up his ass, go fetch" Crude but funny. Sorry to all who think i'm some innocent little goody-goody cause, as you can see, i'm NOT. I'm probably not making sense and popping up random stuff... cause i'm rather mad/insane. So DEAL with it.

Also because i dunno what to say... My life is always boring anyway.

Ah, am off to see read MOREEEEE~

The HORRIBLE truth!

2005-10-31T01:42:00.000-08:00

So i was like... at school la. First found out that i wasn't there for ceremics... cause i got too confused. Many people told me different timings and everything so... ehehe ><;;

Anyway, as we sat down to do tha stupid award thingy. Serene [Ong] and Huiling gave me a present!!! =D A veri ver veri veriiiii verrrrriiiiiii cuteeeee erm... purple piggy which has flowers on it =D [i'll post up a picture of it when i hav energy...so there =P] Then since Huiling was next to me, i hugged her to DEATH *manatic laughter echos throughout.......* She made me tis reaallyyy nice card [which i hav yet to open but i dun wan to open cause i dun wan to spoil it...] Keke...

Okay enough bout that... anyway alot of stupid things happened like writing all those nonsense into that nonsense book lol... It was so much lor! Until lesson 15!!!!!! My hand was sore like anything after i finished la... i was like, "Burn in hell la!!! BURN IN H-" *stops and looks at the people staring at her* Ehehehe...

Real story comes when i got my.... *scary background music plays* Report Book!

Neways... okay la. I did somewhat BETTER than midyr which was quite horrible ><;;

When i was walking home with Serene (Sim) We both realised something... Its freaky but you see.... my Level position, was the around the same as my sec 1 and her's as well. Mine at sec one was around 90 plus and hers was 50 plus ><;; [i dam lan la but wat to do...]
Then next was the physical fittness... i have absolutely NO IDEA how the hell did i get a gold?! Lol oh well, it works for me~

Cause in pri 4, 5, 6, i usually had, silver or gold. In sec 1 and 2... it was bronze and all.. haha... then sec 3 i revert back to primary school >< While serene got a bronze like how she usually did in pri 4 , 5, 6 and in sec 1 and 2 usually had silver or gold! Weird right?!

Next comes what i was telling serene la... It seemed stupid la... In sec 2, at the end of the year, i got this letter. It said something like "Oh yes you improved alot and so got reward of blah blah blah..." Ya la ya la, i improve alot la. But why still go into a WORSE CLASS?! BECAUSE OF THAT BLARDY MATHS LOR!!!!

I was like, "Burn in hell la! Burn in HE-" *stops in mid-sentence, turns to stare at all the onlookers and gives them the 'to hell with you' glare*

See what see! Nuisance!

Haha... no la i nv said that nor did i glare at anyone... see i so GUAI =D

Oh for the love of...

2005-10-30T01:34:00.000-08:00

Hmm... on the 27th which was on thursday... i had my class bonding =) I was suppose to write about it on friday in this bloggie thingy... however, hmm

"Along came SI jason telling me some nonsense and crap about him dying."
Okay ppl usually with cracks lik this i dun mind~ However the fact was that SOMEONE *Glares at Munak* Actually played along with this little... 'prank' Yeesh, talk about being worried. It almost reminds me like the boy who cried wolf ya know... I was really worry okay ya jerks! So i didn't hav the mood to write in my bloggie~

*Stares daggers at Munak and Jason* "Be glad that i'm actually still TOKING to u. Hmmmph." Vemon tone*

ANYWAY, enough about THOSE fools, now i can finally tok about my class bonding =D
Weehee~~~*

I was walking along to Seasons Park with Serene =) Walking and gossiping along~

Anyway once we got there, we were lik the onli girls there first!!!! We didn't dare to go in cause lik so malu la ><

Then we walked around abit then we saw *OUR SAVIORS!!!!!!! WAH HAH* We saw the OTHER serene, papa [jingui], and HUILING XD We quickly dragged them in, we saw the idiots playing pool while the rest were just rotting away. The girls [chairman they all] were at the BBQ pit and so we went to find them. Then after that... aiks lik so boring... [we thought it was going to be DAMMMMMM boring too anyway =P]

After we got there then we returned to the aircon room where the rest of them were. We played UNO!!! eh.. forget how to spell >< Watever... Then we play tis play that... Then finally we go help them with tha bbq =D

Wa lou so hot down there lor and i tell u the boys are useless sissies.... haha... [Jingui said that the boy in pink *hint hint* was a sissy and that the pool... the pool stick >< Was longer than him!] AHAHAHA

Anyway after toking cooking making watever... then Mr Ma cameeee!!!!! WOOHOO! Then he told us! ALL OF US GOT PROMOTED!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!
Me and serene were hugging lik siao and we jumped.... or i jumped anyway, on the rest of them. [They r used to it so who cares...]

Then after we eat eat eat, and while i glared that the BAKA who kept calling me copper..........

We went back to tha pool and KTV place! Then all of us girls decided to go play KTV with the rest of them!!! Had LOTS LOTS LOTS LOTS LOTS fun =D

Actually alot of things happened la but i too lazy to type them all down..... keke...

ho-hum...

2005-10-24T03:21:00.000-07:00

Lol... i read tis REALLY REALLY nice poem yesterday... onli two sentences but oh well....

Boy are silly boys are vain, boys are mostly one big pain.
But its said at least by some, boys excel at acting dumb~

Kekekekekekekekekee.............

Anyway, guess wat i had for DINNER YESTERDAY!!!!!!

TEPANYAKIIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (spelled wrong i guess...)

Tha most delicious thing in the whole wide world! [Basically i rather eat that then go to some stupid fancy restuarant....]

Lalala.... i dam pro one lor. Cause ah, when the guy lays food on tha aluminium foil thingy, i always scoop veri ver fast to my plate and eat eat eat.... then the cook got abit extra will put in my foil again! So i end up with extra~~~~ WOOHOO! [Why do they do that? Cause they so happy to see such a young girl appreaciate their food so much =) ]

Then tis guy next to me, probably 20 or 30s.... he saw that la... then he started doing wat i was doing. So in my mind, i was engaged in a "Who eats faster winS!"

Then when the beef came, the cook put extra in both ME AND HIS foil ><;;

Of course my father and sister were lik... "Why mei go eat until so fast...?"

Well, i was lik a greased lightning...gg.... Guess who 'won' the 'competition'???

*drum roll........*

MEEEE!! I WON!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAA!!! Somemore i had to finish some of my sisters leftovers and all... oh well, i'm greedy so wat to do...?
[i so pro.... wakakaka]
I was the FIRST to finish out of all the ppl there.... [go me! go me!]

anyway enough bout that......

Today i died after getting back my results!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Me and my friends were lik telling mr ma, "call the ambulence!"

He still can see our total maths results......
*Red marks= fail*
*Black marks=pass*
He still got the CHEEEEEEK to say "Wah!!! SO COLOURFUL!"
Sob.... so bad... lol
Go dinner liao ... =P dun say i nv update.. onli got nothing to say.

Gomen ><

2005-09-25T01:36:00.000-07:00

Erm.... well, guys i think i shd say tis...

these few days i haven't been exactly.... well? Well, in real life i've been fine la but...

Online i know i got attitude alot of u all ><

Gomen 4 that. I also dunno why i attitude >< But i think tis will continue for a period of time before i actually get over it... i think its abit from sch problems ba....

Just 4 yr info ba =)

Goodbye cruel world....

2005-09-18T00:54:00.000-07:00

I'm at the limits of my totally sian life..... i'm going to retain and i know it! So i shd start writing my will now....
If i really kena retain
1) Go jump
2) Go migrate
3) Deal with it? GO KILL PRINCIPAL!!! j/k.....

Actually they ver stupid lor... some crap about raising the standards and stuff..... they nv gib us a second chance.... U all BULL I TELL U!!! BULL!!!!

So unfair loR! I actually STUDIED then i still FAIL MY PHYSICS AND BADLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Feel lik banging my head VIOLENTLY against the wall...

sob.... ok... goodbye all....................................................................

WE ROCK =D

2005-09-14T23:51:00.000-07:00

Weeelll..... i was kinda groaning as i dragged my feet to school today... Got PE T_T Anyway.... during maths plus one we went to go take class photo X_X so fun! The guy was lik... "CHESSE" HAHAHAHA.... i think i blinked at every shot =.=

Then came PE! *shudders* So there we all were, around 192 students, sitting out in the hot sun in our rolls like GUAI GUAI STUDENTS WE ARE =D Which we actually are not la... herm... ><>< Finally Ms Irene come liao =D Then she told us to mark our attendence... and blah blah.... then mr Rumi come.... then he explain we go warm up blah blah blahhhh....

Then we run abit here and there..... then after that we all go PLAY!!!!!! WAKAKAKKAAAA Frisbee ROXS =D WE all playyyy! Then finally ended up with 5-0!! HAH HAH HAH! *wat to do we so pro....* lol just kidding la... the other team dam geng also... But them teacher started helping them lor!!! NO FAIR! Why our team always kena teacher help the other team de T_T

Anyway when the team ended with 2points time was up.... *Whew* So we still won!!! WOOHOO!!! WE ROCK! Lalala.....

=.=

2005-09-12T00:00:00.000-07:00

Well.... it was two days ago (saturday)... after some studying, i retreated back to my sister room so i can go sleep.... When i was puting on my cream and standing at the mirror, after i turned the mirror abit, I FROZE.... I saw something moving near me sister shelf....

I saw a lizaRD!!!! ARRGH!!!

Anyway.... here it is in slow motion... or in tis case, slow telling =P

Ok... i stared at the lizard and its small DISGUSTING black eyes stared back.... Suddenly i found my mind chanting over and over again.... 'Don't freak out dun freak out dun freak out.....' over and over and over again...

But afew seconds after chanting that stupid sentence.... well, lets just say....
[IN STORY FORM ^^]

A loud screech erupted throughout the neighbourhood as a young girl ran from her sisters room and started pounding vigorously on her parents room.

[End]

Then >< i asked my father to lift my bed off the ground [cause its a mattress come bed]
Then when my sister wanted to see the lizard [she not scared la dunno wats her problem] i was screaming at her not to go there ><

Finally me mother came along and i was down on my bed shuddering lik a leaf in a storm.... That's when i finally experienced REAL *HYPERVENTILATING* I was squealing *in fear* and shouting and laughing all at the same time ><

LAalalallaa.... finally i go sleep =D

Then the next day (sunday)

We were going to church ya... then before we went there, we had breakfast at a coffeeshop. Wa lou lor... we had to sit near tis bunch of idiots who were smoking... i was pissed la... i wan to eat breakfast then they down there smoking... CURSE U PPL WHO SMOKE AND DESTROY MY BREAKFAST TIME! *remember kiddies, breakfast is the most important meal of the day =D*

Erm... just kidding bout the cursing part >< Then i saw a big black cat which had small patches of white. Its eyes were pretty scary.... Then i told me sister to be careful.... [SHe is SOOO freaked out by cats =.=][i really dunno why. i mean they so cute and aDORABLE and FLUFFY] ANyway... my father was joking, [The more my sister scared the more it will come after her]

After breakfast *which i ate really really fast as usual =) * My sister was of course still looking out for the cat. Then suddenly she got up and squealed abit and ran off... then i look next to me and saw the cat walking past me and to my sister chair >< LOL
Why we so sWAY!....
haix....

2005-09-06T01:05:00.000-07:00

Me and my RACHIE SAMA! See si uncle jason! We tried to tak yr bloody advice =P

2005-09-05T21:09:00.000-07:00

Yes yes! The most adorable dog in the world! Its not mind... oh well! But its still the cutest! Han's one de =P

Haix Haix... we grow up so fast =D

2005-09-05T20:51:00.000-07:00

Woohoo! By tmr afternoon around there! I ish gonna be getting a NEW LITTLE COUSIN BOY!!! Say hello to Marcus! =D Sure beri ber cute de... but poor john john not gonna hab all the attention edi =P Nvm, its none of my business ^_~ Babies dun attract my attention that much... DOGGIES DO MORE!! Wahkakakakakaaaa!! Ok ok! I hope Marcus comes out okay X_x Grow up to be a good and handsome young man which will mak many girls run after him Kekeke

2005-08-31T02:13:00.000-07:00

Keke... when i saw that i just HAD to put it in my blog =D

ANyway..... today!!!!!! WAKAKAKAKAKAAAA!!!! U see la...

I woke up early in the morning groaning as usual.... (always happens) But tis morning i felt more ALIVEEE!! Waaaahaaa! Today sch ends early and we DANCE!!! Yippeee!!
So i got up brush teeth... lada lada lada~~~ Blah blah and BLAH

Then i left my house to go to the bus stop to meet serene =D Then anyway we saw tis STUPID yckss boy... he was not wearing PE attire lor. Stupid and extra and... UGLY. Wkakakakaa.....

ANyway... then we reach tha place and lada lada lada.... meet meryl mama, jingui papa and GANG=D *family* ^^ Then anyway we all tok tok tok... then they called all of us to go and PRATICE THE DANCE!!! YIPEEEE!!

Then anyway, as i happily BOUNCED across the field and to my class =D *something i always do so no surprise there* Then i so poor thing lor.... had to stand next to the STUPID sherwin....... then i was making fun of him and hui ling la =D So fun to tease ppl...wakkaka... anyway... then we did 3 dance practices

*Rock recover CHA CHA CHA!!!* Kekekeke.... =D

Then i was sweating lik siao la... and laughing at all the entu ppl around me... =D

Then we go back sit... then tok tok tok... Then finally! The guest of honour comes and all the camera ppl and all ><

Then we were called to go and dance AGAIN!!! >< Tis time the camera ppl were lik TAKING SHOTS OF EVERYONE!!!
Our class right in the middle lor!!! So the guy was lik walking around!!! I was looking down the whole time ><

Then finally the tire rolling thing camE!!! WOOHOOOOOOO!!!! Me and serene and ahli were screaming and cheering lik siao....

but it was a fake one... =.= they were just trying out....

Then they did it again and we cheer lik siao again.... fake again =.=

Then when the real thing came.... i no voice edi >< Hahaha... nvm i had to scream anyway. =D

Then finally the whole thing ended... soooo.... we beat the record thing =D
WOOHOO!!!
SO!! Look out tonight! Must go watch news!!! Maybe got my face there! HAHAHAHAHA!.... actually i hope dun hab.... ><

A Conversation in Heaven About Us

2005-08-31T02:05:00.000-07:00

A conversation in heaven about us

One day Satan and Jesus were having a conversation. Satan went to visit Jesus in the Garden of Eden, and Satan came all happy and boasting. (Lk 4: 1-12; Job 1: 6-12)

"Yes, Lord, now I have everybody captive, well nearly everybody down there. I set put traps, I used the baits of temptation, I know well what each one of them can't resist. I nearly caught them all!" (I Pet 5: 8-9; Eph 6: 10-17)
"What are you going to do with them?" Jesus asked. and He was praying to God the Father. Satan answered "Oh, I am going to have some fun with them!"I'll make them divorce after they have married so the foundation of humanity will never be able to be established "the family" (Mt 19: 4-6; Mal 2: 16) I will make them hate each other and abuse each other, make them fall into alcohol and drugs without control. (Rom 13: 12-14) I will teach them to make weapons and bombs, so they kill each other "I am really going to have fun!"

"And when you are tired of playing with them, what will you do?"Jesus asked. And continued praying
"Oh, I will kill them all and their souls will be mine forever"ìLord by all respect, it¥s their decisionî (I Jn 3: 8-10)
"How much do you want for all of them?" Jesus asked.
"Oh, you can't want these people. They aren't anything good. Why do you want them if they neither follow you nor love you? Many hate you! I have seen many of them spitting on you, cursing you and even denying you.""What's more, they love me a lot" (Mt 24: 10-13) "You don't want these people!"
"How much?" Jesus asked again Satan looked at him with a nasty face "All your tears and all your blood, all the pain of the entire world, all together" (Is 53: 4-10; I Pet 2: 24)
Jesus said..."DONE""and He paid the price" (II Cor 5: 21)

How terrible it is that people don't seek for God, and then ask themselves why the world is going to hell!
How terrible that we seek the newspaper everyday to read tragedies and we never seek the Bible How insensible it is how everybody wants to go to heaven, thinking they can get there without having to believe, without loving God above all things, or doing what the Bible says...the Laws of God. Is it not terrible how some people can say "I believe in God"but still follow Satan (Who as matter of fact, does fear God) (II Tim 4: 3-4; II Jn 1: 7-11)
Don't you think it's pathetic how they send each other thousands of jokes by email, so they spread like plagues. But when it's about the Lord's messages, we think about it twice before we share them; and we leave the mailboxes of our friends without this message Don't you think it is outrageous that the obscene, vulgar and crude is allowed freely to pass through the internet that even many people would desire to get into the screen. But it is forbidden to speak publicly about Jesus in the schools, places of work self-helping groups, etc... (Acts 4: 19-20) Even after knowing what He did for us. Because the Romans didn't kill Him. It was our sin. that we may be forgiven and know Him in His glory with the Father. Doesn¥t it seem incredible to you how somebody can be alight on Sunday in the Church, worshipping and thanking the Lord for His mercy, for one more day to live etc. But during the rest of the week he is an invisible Christian! (II Tim 3: 1-5; Rom 10: 9-13)
Does this seem just to you? Don't let Satan stop you sending this Mail to all your contacts on the Web, It doesn't matter if he tells you that many don't believe this Don't let him get through with his plans! Stop worrying what the others may think about you It is time to worry about what "God thinks about you" Please brother and sister, pass it on? "I already did it" May God bless you always (II Cor 13: 13)

Fun fun fun!!! But now sick.....

2005-08-18T03:21:00.000-07:00

Lalala... Yay ^^ finally can update about wat happened YESTERDAY!!! Okay lets start...

Herm...

We all go home ya... then we suppose to meet at 4pm la... lol... i was lik, stuffing the chicken rice down my throat >< Then RUSSSSSH to bathe...

Around 3.40 i get an sms from my AHMA [kt] "Where r u" I was lik... wa lou! SO EARLY HE ALREADY ASK ME TIS!!!

I mean, i was still at home lor... then anyway... i got to AMK MRT around 3.50 plus plus.... then i saw ahma and weiseng. But i IGNORED and walked to top up my card... $0 value left >< Anyway, i walked out and saw both of them walk past me, [they didn't even see lor... eye got problem] anyway, i shouted "AHMA!" And kt turned around!! HAHAHAHAHAH! See see!!! He ADMITS his name is Ah Ma ^______^ Ahahahaahaaa~~ Lalala~*

Anyway... then we all start arguing la... they say i look lik i was going airport................ i was not lor! cold cannot bring jacket ma? 2pid.... Anyway then we saw ah gong ^^

Then suddenly tis guy came up to us and was lik...... he said he need to go to Jurong la... and he wanted $5 and pleaded us to giv him... *Sillllleeeeeenceeeeeee* Wat i do ah? Me and ahma.... we... slowly BACKED away and left ahgong and weiseng there!! KEkekekeke... smart right? =P Anyway we didn't giv the guy anything la... $5 quite alot lor... can buy the ro new cd lor!!

Then i was busy digging my bag 4 my hp... couldn't find it ><><><
Then go find Rachie and Eileen ^^ Then they were with chen chong....

ALamak... must go edi... nvm i continue tmr =P

2005-08-16T01:35:00.000-07:00

Weeelll.... finally go update blog =D Aren't u proud of me rachie sama? =P Well... anyway... since our insane yesterday during english... the SONG taught by SISTER AGATHA got stuck in my head!
Lalala...
"No men is an island~~~ No men stands alone~~~~ [Then something something something then] We neeeeeed one another!!!!! We need [then something something something...] Then chorus!" Pathetic i know... but at least i remember lor! The MEMORIES OF SISTER AGATHA would be STUCK to my mind.... no matter how hard i try to erase it... =.=

Oh ya! Then during chinese ^^ Elion SAMA lend me those books la.... Absolute BF! SO SWWEEEEET! Then they all doing the stupid test then i down there reading comic... and trying ver hard not to LOL =P If not everyone stare at me.... pai seh pai seh >< Veri sweet lor. Then that stupid IDIOT infront of me.... making me feel bad... say ah gong spent alot $$ on us... byuing the comics for us and all...! He keep saying saying.... then i told him i feel ver bad edi lor. Then ask him he wan me to feel worse ah? Then he said YA!!!! Bleuk. dun care him.... [now still beri guilty....]

W000T!!!! Ah gong ROXS ^___^ Really take care of US [his grandchildren =D]

Oh ya! Today so FUNNNNNY! So happy la... see see! They all leave then POA onli got around 18 ppl!!! HAHAHAHAH! So teacher was lik, free period..........
HAR HAR HAR HAR HAR! =P

Then then then........ Drama was fun also! And now i know, i'm a LOUSY murderer..... =.= sob sob sob.....

Bleuk.... [aiks... pain, more pain....... T_T]

2005-08-13T02:13:00.000-07:00

Ai ya... u all complain so much de =.=;; k la k la... i'll change the skin... wait until i find a nice nice one =D

Lol... fun...

2005-07-23T22:56:00.000-07:00

Well... here i am, moping around and feeling sorry for myself... the problem is. Tmr got 2.4!!!!!!!!! And i KNOW i'm going to fail... usual crap starts sprouting... i shd hav trained and its my own fault i feel lik tis and etc etc... now i feel so much better =D

U see.. i just came home from church... nothing much really happened there... but... down there..
My sister bought for me a nice christian book. Title is "Getting FREE" [How christians can conguer the flesh and overcome persistent personal problems] Keke ^^ I paid for about half of it though... anyway after church and after my cat class, i when to buy my pendants that i really wanted to buy ^^ And i did! 2 of them... :) Cheap also. Kekeke... anyway... then me and my friend [my dear friend rachel. Not rachelsama mind you.. another one] Together we when there ^^ And while we were [or she was helping me] choose the pendant i lik... the man was really helpful! =D Then along came father ^^ Then he was toking to me. "What are you looking for?" [A veri kind voice :)] Then the sales guy was lik "Haha! You hav a professional to help you choose" And me friend and me laughed... then so father picked out a nice pendant and i chose it along with a blackstring and a veri nice necklace ^^
So off me and my friend when... the father left before i could ask him to help me bless it. So i found another father [the one whose english veri pro pro liddat de...] Then so he helped me bless it ^^ Then he did the sign of the cross on my head [kinda lik wat they do to those little children who cant receive holy communion...] Then he pat me on the head and said "be a good girl"
Then my friend was laughing and mocking me "Oh yes.. be a good girl =P" Then the father put a hand on her shoulder and said... "You two! It does not exclude you. You too must be a good girl" Then my friend was lik "Oh yes..." The way she say veri funny la...
Then we both when to say our thanks in the room....
Since it was raining, rachel couldn't go home... so i told her when my family comes she can borrow an umbrella... so we started toking about natfa and all... and now i feel so much better ^^ May not be a big deal to some ppl but it is to me ^^
So there =P
before we went home...

Life slowly crawls by...

2005-07-19T02:45:00.000-07:00

I know i haven't posted in lik... a hundred yrs or so...

Well anyway these few days i had alot on my mind and... i'm trying my best to understand myself and the way i'm suppose to grow to be a better person...
(i'm trying to be a better person... and it is REALLY hard...)

I hav been under tis stress 4 veri long... and its effecting my mood and all... Of course u ppl keep saying [she forever playing computer la] which is true la... =P but still.... aiks.. >< i also dunno how to explain la! Anyway... i cant help but feeling in tis class... the good influence just isn't there la...
Last yr i had much better influence lor... *sigh*
Also veri hard to get a good friend these days... its the truth la... [but i guess no one out there is just......]
I'm leaving everything to fate and to the hands of the Lord...
And i trust that it will be a good path =)

2005-07-11T00:53:00.000-07:00

yaya.... today... so sway one lo!

SO MALU ><

Stupid serene la... during chem... she push me when i was on the chair... and i collasped >< *runs and hides* Lose face lose face!!! Stupid boys... laugh lo! LAUGH SOMEMORE! I almost wanted to punch them in their blardy face... they continue laughing then i said....i shouted, "Tiam tiam la!" Then they were lik... "OOOhhh" "Wow" Etc etc... Then after that... they start THROWING THINGS AT ME AND SERENE!!!! (or me onli la... dunno wat the hell is their problem) burn in hell BURN IN HELL!!!! Argh...!

Erm... herm >< #So, Gentle reminder to all of you out there, do not. I repeat, DO NOT get on my bad side or else you will be cursed *by moi*#

BOO!

However... some asholes out there do not hav a good side or bad side... *All they hav are angles* Or maybe just totally plain bad sides...

SO everyone ^^ Lets all try and live and follow who we are going to meet when we pass on ^^

Then the world will be a better place =)

kekekekek...

(Also dunno wat to write in bloggie anymore so i shall just crap/spam)

2005-07-09T04:23:00.000-07:00

Lost souls... lost hearts...
I pray that you may find...
The way back to the truth and the light.
May God Bless you...

Even as the tears continue to fall... *haiz* i also dunno wat to do or to say about the world anymore...

2005-07-02T23:38:00.000-07:00

Yeps... nv update 4 so long... so lazy la... shd i just delete it or... but then i onli update when i got something i really wan to tok about.. and so far... nix. So u all can wait until i think of something to write... [something that insprires me to write] lo! =P Now also not much to do... can sleep.. zzz..

2005-06-19T22:00:00.000-07:00

Yeps.... i just came back from SLEEPOVER AT MY GRANDMAS NEW HDB!!!!! Sounds like an utterly boring kinda thing huh? No lo... go with my cousins then its definately FUN x10000000000000000!!! =P Ok ok... first things first, we go out la... then go watch a movie at J8... we watched... erm... alot lik love. Not bad la... veri romantic kinda show... The guy.. lead one ah, at first nerd nerd la... but then after 3 yr he cut his dorky looking hair then he beri suai de =P The girl towards the end then beri pretty. Anyway ah... that show... abit HERM one... alot of implied HERM!!!!!....... Dun know wat herm is than too bad. Then anyway then after that we go shop shop... then after that go to grandma houseeeee... of course... not to mention the TONS of food we bought to bring over.... kekeke... really alot lo. Lik 3 whole bottles...[big bottles] of drinks. =D We drink alot de... =P Then after we go there... relax around OUR room... =P Then we order our pizza...from pizza hut =P But...... we onli ordered ONE pizza that had lik... 6 pieces ><;; Singapura supreme i think... but we ordered 30 spicy drumlets~~~~~~~~~!!!! HAHAHAHAA =P We all claimed SURE NO PROBLEM! Sure can finish de! And well, we did =P But we gav a peice to our belove grandma ^^ [see! We soo good de] Then while eating that..... LET OUR MOVIE MARATON BEGING!!!!!!!!!!! W0000000t! =P We watch a new hilary duff dvd... that doesn't come out in singapore... then we watched cheaper by the dozen... by then its already lik 11.30 around there ><>< Then then we go 4 breakfast etc etc.... eat tis and that and blahx... and i'm too lazy to say wat happened there =.=; Anyway... we go back to the flat then we go back to our room.... then after some time..... HONEY CAME!!!!!!!!!!!! Of course the shriek that erupted from my sister and my cousin was..... ear breaking =.=;; [they were scared la...] but my another cousin and her sister and me when ALL OUT TO GREET THE ADORABLE CUTE CUTE FLUFFY THING!!!!!!!!!! ^^ Then after going hysterical and blahx... then they all go home...lo... then left my baka sister and my cousin. Then we all go home and here we are =P Of course i skipped alot lo... bleuhx...
=P
'nough said

2005-06-19T21:37:00.000-07:00

Yeps.......... came back from my SLEEPOVER AT MY GRANDMA!!!!!!!

2005-06-09T22:42:00.000-07:00

Hehe.... bleuh. Tis morning i go SWIMMING with serene papa and ahli! Kekekeke... beri beri fun de! I keep clinging on to papa cause i too lazy to swim. Kakaka~ Actually i clinged onto all of them. Including serene who cldn't swim... who cares i say who cares? Ohohoho... The water dam song! So cold and cool and nice.... and fluffy (^^'') Well... then we play play play lo. Trying to teech serene how to swim and at the same time having fun tormenting her! WAKAKAKA... ^^;; Well... everyone seemed 'fasinated' by the way i swim which is DOGGIE STYLE! No la... just swim in the normal way but my head is above the water lo........... all ask me teach! ><;; I mean lik, HELO i also dunno how i know... but i just know that i know, you know? Kekeke... Then after fooling around the middle pool 4 awhile me and ahli go to the baby pool ><;; Go inside the water and play play there... haha... we so extra. But wat to do? We lik being extra ma! =P KAKAKAKAKA! Then we play play play play... then me and ahli playing around by going around the corner while ahli tries to float =.=; Then... ahli siao one lo. She ah, drift on the water ah... drift until almost the middle lo! Then i quickly call her! Then she snap out of it... then she almost drowned =.=;;;;;;;; If not 4 ME [Go ME!] I pulled her out... Then we go back to the middle pool. Kao lo! So many ppl! After we relax at the sides for quite some time we see harpreet again! Then i go and cling to her again.. keke wat to do la? I lik clinging to ppl de.. then i ask her wat she doing. Then she say play football.... then finally she told me she was being sacastic.. then i still blur.. onli after awhile then it hit me she was being sacastic.. =.=;; Then anyway we stay there until... 11am plus.

THEN GO HOME AH! Ma de lo.. stupid ro... bo credit de! Then I go ALLLL The way to AMK central to buy the blardy card! I buy 2 lo! So now pokai edi... T_T Then on my way back i buy rotiboy... hah hah hah! Then now back at home...... so suan....... keekekekekekekeke~

2005-06-07T03:23:00.000-07:00

Used to think... i'm usually an easygoing happy go luck and tolerant person right? But today... ok not today. But i know some ppl who can surly mak my bloodpressure.... go UP 10 NOTCHES! Usually i can tolerant SOME nonsense... but there is ALWAYS a line... and tis time... argh!!! I really cannot tahan until i'm fuming in my seat while bouncing up and down the chair. I have NEVER met anyone lik... THAT. Even worse then glenn lo............. i mean. How bad is that?! Of course i keep telling myself... yes yes he actually veri good de... cannot judge ppl... one shd go and understand... one shd... etc etc~~~~ But seriously... i never got TIS worked up cause of ONE person. Okay okay... give me TIME to cool down pls.... but thinking about it.... brrrr... sents shivers through my entire being! THAT BAD OK! ANYWAY!!!! Kekekeke... today, i go REBORN! YESH YESH YESH! REBORNNNN~~~ Finally nia~ Watashi kawaii de suuuuu!!!! Not me la... my char =P Also my aco so cuteeee!!! If i cld marry myself i wld~ Kekekekekekeke.... Crapping again.. oh well =P

2005-06-05T23:57:00.000-07:00

Okay okay... i'm back! Even though now i'm half sick from camp... >< cares ="P"><;; ScArY okay... *pouts* Anyway we did our praise and song singing thingie before lunch. Anyway, then then then... melissa was lik, so... i duno her la. She went home on the FIRST DAY! In the AFTERNOON! I think something MUST hav happened la... then ok lo.. she gone. So onli 3 ppl in our room lo... sobx. Then afternoon we go walk in the botanic gardens 'looking' for our catercist. I kinda suspected they weren't even there nia... Anyway i had alot of fun 'looking'. We were more lik admirering the plants but oh well... i was arguing with the boys.. [as usual] Who ask them be so irritating and stupid. Not my problem right? =P I tell you, they are DAM pervertic... totally... ugh... Anyway we couldn't find our catercist so us CC3s when back lo... then we saw them back =.=;; Then anyway they all ask us if we "You all were singing praises to God etc etc... then NOW afew hours later in Botanical gardens you cursing wondering where the catercist were..." Haha... heng i never curse. I enjoyed my time there nia... Eventhough i was lik fighting with them the whole time... Then la de dah, la de dah... basically i kinda forgot wat happened after that.... *herm..* Hehehe... *giggles sheepishly* I think we wrote about how we feel our relationship with God was... upon 10 how much... i think i wrote 2 or 3... dam i so lousy.. ><>< Then i felt veri warm at the back... very warm feeling inside... then i sway... forward... haha anyway i didn't blackout dun worri.. i wanted to though. So i felt that my expierence that night was not enough for my soul. Then that night... ederweiss... was sick.. then she go home around 11 plus plus... I ALONE IN MY GROUP NOW! I WILL DIE! That was wat i thought. And me and janice now alone in the stupid room. And there was an annoying lizard at the wall.. i HATE THEM! Then me and janice veri scared la... then we move our bed to the middle of the room so the lizard cant get us... [EVIL LIZARD!!!!] Oh btw... i didn't bathe... hahahahahahaha. I onli wash up abit here and there.... ai ya. The toilet so WAT ONE LO! Wan me bathe... bleuh.

THEN THE NEXT DAY CAME! SUNDAY!
Bleuh... me and janice toked until 1pm... keke.. she and her boyfriend tok on the phone... so DAM sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet! I was squealing away. As usal ma... i cupid maa... wat u wan me to do? =P Then we go sleep... with the light on. Then we wake up....... groggy groggy de...haha. Anyway we found that the lizard was GONE! HAH HAH HAH! =P Then we go brush teeth... of course we froze our socks off... [ i wasn't wearing socks its just an EXPRESSION] Then we go down... then i was lik thinking, 'oh no.. now must be alone in my group. THE ONLI GIRL! Die la die la die laaa!' Really lo... Then we all go botanics again. Do some SOUL SEARCHING. Duno how to explain la. Kekekeke... Then when we all go there in groups. As usual i arguing with them. Kakaka.. anyway we all had to sit around the entrance as onli one person shd go at a time... veri fun lo. We were doing action songs and all. And ppl around were lik staring at us lik thinking, 'Wat the...' or 'Wat a bunch of insane ppl' Or something... Then anyway my turn came... then i walk in... then i tried to pretend God was with me. I know he was with me la. But i was thinking more physically.. then i was lik holding someones hand while walking nia... after i walk through the evogardens... i found out that my best cat class friend rachel got LOST! Then i got all worried and all... Gerry said she is now with John la..Gerry was betting with us that when we see her she'll say something lik, "I dunno! I duno!" OR something.. hahaahaha. Then finally when we walked on then i saw her, ran to her and started screaming at her. "HOW THE HELL U GET LOST?!?!" Ok i didn't say that la... haha. Anyway then as a group we sat there and ate our breakfast... i'm not toking in detail nia...... then we all go walk the stones there... hahaha.. then i walk with my sandals. KEKEKEK SO not painful =P Then the boys were lik, "Crystal tak off la." "Wa lou liddat can one ah" "Dun be so liddat la" And on and on.... but i IGNORED theM! BWakakaka.. go me! GO ME! Anyway... Then after that we all play play playplay. Then we go back. Then we tok tok tok tok... OKay la i type until ver sian edi. I SKIP FORWARD TO the afternoon...... Then we had another praying over session....
I liked it alot lo.... I cried alot... i cried alot... alot alot alot... then i cry and confess all in my heart as i bluttered everything i wanted to say out in small whimpers and murmurs... Gerry walked over to me and grabbed my hand... Then she brought me over... i was still tear steaked face... Then i told them that i wanted to be come more "Tis is CONFIDENCIAL" Then anway they started to pray. The guy behind me started toking in tongues while Gerry switched back and forth to english and tongues... Then i was muttering, "COme to me holy spirit i'm so sorry but i really wan etc etc etc etc......." Then i felt one hand on my left shoulder.... pushing me... pushing me ver hard. It felt so physical. I was wondering why Gerry would be pushing me. Anyway i gav into the feeling. Then i stumbled backwards. The man of course caught me. And gerry told me that i shd kneal which i did. Then slowly slowly slowly as they continued... i slowly went forward, little by little... then finally my head softly landed on the ground as Gerry held it. Something was pushing me forward gently u see.... so soft... but i gav into it. Of course i liddat in the middle where everyone can see.. so malu lo. My butt was in the air... but i didn't hav the energy to move. Neither did i really care bout wat other ppl thought. But finally i got up. Then gerry came over to me and hugged me. I slowly staggered back to my place and thought about the events that happened.... i didn't notice. But my face felt burning hot inside. I felt heat throughout my entire being. So warm... even though it was cold in the aircon room. Then, i cried abit more. This time, not for my faults and failures. But tis time i cried as i was overwhelmed with joy. So happy.... Then janice wiped them away for me [sob! some ppl are so nice...] i tried to find rachel. Then finally i saw another rachel then we looked for my dear best friend. Then i saw rachel. We both when to comfort her. Then we toked bout our experiences.... then after everyone was done, we all go to change as it was time for massssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The father veri cute. HAHAAHAHAH! He came from st ignatious... duno how to spell. But i was thinking... thats my grandpas name................................. Then we all got to taste a little bit of wine... oh man i couldn't stand it ><>< Then we all sang songs. And did actions dances... ahahahahahahaha.... dip dip dip dip dip dip.... HAHAAHAH Oh man. The father tried to do alSO! SO FUNNY NIA! KEKEKEKE... then anyway. They tell us do performance lo! Then we decided to do on when Lazerious.... duno how to spellllllllllll! ARGH! My english. ANyway.. Then we did him raising from the dead. SO FUNNY! We had alot of fun putting up the play And i also enjoyed performing it eventhough i felt so embarressed.. ^^ But it was veri fun. I seriously enjoyed the time i had there... Then we did PRAISE AND WORSHIP! MAn! So fun lo! Even now i still feel lik bouncing and praising the Lord. I'd giv anything to do that again. ^^ Then we all did sharing and all.......... by that time it was already 11 plus. So FAST! Then they dismiss us and i had to go home... stupid ceramics class... i kinda regret going 4 that instead of camp. I didn't tell all in detail... its hard k. But when i cldn't finish my food i'll just SHOVE it to the boys in my group. HAHAHAHAHAAHAHHAHAHAHAAHAH! They really eat alot.. =.=;; Okay okay... type until can die edi. I go edi ba. play games and RO =P Byeeee~

2005-06-02T22:46:00.000-07:00

Yeps... ppl keep complaining i never update HOR... my fans waiting HOR. Lol... okay lemme mak tis short... crappie day nia
Okay... lemme start by actually TRYING to sound happy... [See la. stupid attitude of mine] *sighs* Maybe its the weather or something... anyway... tmr got camp la.. not that i dun wan to go la. I don't mind. In fact i feel kinda happy to be leaving tis stupid house... where ppl here just... blame me 4 everything nia? Sort of... then i'll get into another of my hissy fits... bleuh. Right now i'm switching ro to minimize and to maximize again and agian. No one is safe... or anyway no lvl 47 archer is safe from the stupid evil poison spore [which i can kill in one DS la... but who cares] Stupid lag... lag until can vomit blood. Now my msn is crapped up [i cant even LOG INTO the blardy thing...] and my i can almost swear that my internet connection is the slowest in the entire world... took me 4ever and many refreshes to actually GET to tis page where i can write my stupid entry...

Maybe going to camp will giv me chance to get out of tis stupid life which i hav at my stupid home on my stupid computer which stupid internet connection is stupidly slow... [stupid is like the word of the day now...]

One of the reasons why i'm feeling crappie and everything is because i just came back from my ceremics... ceramics?? I dunno.. anyway i came home from my that lesson la.. and i'm all exhausted and everything and only my family members would know EXACTLY which buttons to push before my bloodpressure skyrockets.......... and thats exactly wat happen.... stupid nia? Anyway... hopefully going away from home will get my and my life back together again. [What can be better than going away from home and spending quality time with God and my friends? *i'm NOT being sarcastic here*]

Anyway peeps i just want u all to know......... just dun piss me off since i'm in a pretty pissable mood. Tq...

2005-05-27T04:40:00.000-07:00

Just came back from SL! (service learning) So fun lo~ i was thinking of what to write in my blog on my way home on the bus ><;; Oh well... then anway la... HAD ALOT OF FUN! Hahahahaha! At first today ah, finish art la... then go find serene papa they all. After hugging all of them to death, we all go to Toa Payoh Central... go and there and rot rot rot rot! Walk from one place to another... walk walk walk... kekeke... WALK 4 AROUND 12 to 3 lo!!! LIKE NON STOP! Now leg wan to die edi... tmr somemore must walk again. Lol >< case =".="..."><><><' Maybe wo maybe........ Then then then!!! There was tis girl la... she beri cute la.. she keep coming up to me... then she will like, like to lie on me la... i sit there she lean on me de! [Kawaii Sou!!!] Then take picture with HER ^^ And got alot of them also beri cute cute de ^^ Then i sit down ah... she suddenly BLOM her weight on me lo @_@ My leg amost broke there and then......X_x So nice lo she... but youngsters being youngsters.... all got abit of attitude la ><; One boy pull serene skirt lo!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! But heng she wear pants inside la... the other girls were like, "EE molester!" Kekekeek... Anyway after doing our normal crapping and all... we go play games ^^ Then half way playing got injury la... then after that... they making alot of noise la... make until i almost cannot tahan.... then... [my patience has a limit la...] i screamed SHUTTUP!! Then i think they were so dam shocked la... but what to do? I angry ma.. kekeekke... then anyway, stupid BOY [my friend in sl] He didn't know wat to do since the teams not even ma... [we playing dog and bone ma...] Then I.. [sheesh] had to open my BIG mouth to say, "Don't even think about asking me to join" Then stupid me gave him that stupid idea that made him think stupidly that i miss. stupid should go and play. Obviously the girls were overjoyed la... whereas... the other team poor thing. I intimidated the poor boy. Wahkakakaka.. Cause i have brains unlike SOME.... erm nvm >< Anyway the bottom line is had alot of fun la ~.~ Heh..

Then TMR going out with ah gong korkor and sama's an mama and blahx they all lo so got time to have fun again. Who cares ma, EXAMS ARE OVER!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-05-22T02:43:00.000-07:00

Yep... so i have like 3 exams left before i am totally STRESSED FREE! Woohoo~! But tung ku ku la. hope tis week past fast ><;; Sure die 4 alot of the test de... sure diiieeee =.=;; Art haven't even started yet! Oh man mdm pria is going to killl meee~!!! X_x

Anyway.. they aledi started toking bout tha camp at the end of the yr! So fun right! ><>< BUT SO FUN WO! Even though my class suxs... at least can play around with tha other siao char bo's (me and my friends and sama's) Ohohohohoho~~~~

Btw... suppose to tak tis quiz so blah...

What color are you? (Anime Pictures)
brought to you by Quizilla

Ai ya... yellow again. Why aalways liddat ah... =.=;; kekekeke...
Okay... back to ro 4 me~

2005-05-15T00:36:00.000-07:00

*sigh* Just finished about 1 hour plus plus of studying... keke my resistance to studying ish DAM low. Almost fell asleep while reading bout tha stupid merger and seperation... =.=;; Eyes all drooping and everything... later must go and study somemore also. T_T

Yesterday night, at my room... reading a romance noval~ (as usual) then suddenly blackout lo! The whole house all dark dark. [Obviously i freaked lo...] While finding my way out of my dark and scary room... i hit a wall.. =.=;; I banged right into half the door and half a wall....... sobs. Oh the pain, the humiliation of it all... Bleuh...

Anyway since i dun hav enough time to play ro~ I stop crapping now~ =P

2005-05-10T04:35:00.000-07:00

WAAAA! Presenting project tmr in front! In the hall!!!! WAAAAH! SO SCARY!!!!!!!!! ><;; What to do? We rock ma~ Too smart. kekekekekekekeke!!!!!!!! But seriously.... so scary le!!!!!!!

Yeps... sigh.. still waiting 4 tha stupid priest of mine to be 99! Why take so long de lo! I mean, i know as a 2nd stage my priest veri beautiful la. What to do? Issit my problem my priest so preetttty?!?!?!?!? Kekekeke... sorri am crapping... again =P But its tha truthhhhhhh~~ Ohohohohohohhohohohohohohohohoh

Sian... exam coming! Oh no! Stress coming! NO COM 4 DAYS!!! OH NO OH NO!!!! Wat am i to dooooooo?~?~?~ *dramtical music plays* My happinessssssss.............. Ok sorri... am siao... =.=;;

Oh ya which reminds moi! NutZZZzzzZZZZzzzzZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-05-09T14:03:00.000-07:00

Yep i'm back from the HORRID english paper.... in sch =.=;; Stupid lo! What's that B word?! The one about that who... erm.. worse than sandfleas and WATEVER ><;; START WITH B DE! Fail la fail la... tsk tsk tsk...T_T Sian la! Cannot fail english de wo~~~~! DOT ZZZzzzzZZZzz~ Kekekeke... Then just now after sch go with ahli. She keep my company at the buzZzzstop. =P Then i decide go market buy lunch! Kekeke... then on our way there see her BOYBOY! Haahahaha... =P Then ahli veri sway la. Poor girl. Today never bring pencilcase (Walou le today is english paper ><><;; Then we laugh laugh laugh (lik siao char bo de la) Then ahli boy boy and flying pig walking near behind us de la. Then then he run up to ahli and hit her on the head. Of course ahli will run and hit back la! WAAAAAAAA SO CUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUTEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! @_@ SO SWEEEEEET~~~Giving me toothache de... Somemore during tha stupid recess... my junior come auntie bully my bear! Papa also go help her de! MAMA ALSO DO NTH TO STOP HER SISTER DE! Wah! Only ah rene and ahli help one le... bully me somemore... >< SobzzzZzzzz... keke... learn from papa de. ohohohhohohohohoho!!!

Watever... =.=;;

2005-05-08T04:09:00.000-07:00

Wah! Tmr is my first paper le! English! ><;; HOW?! Never study le! HOW?! Later go read papers ba... =P Actually first paper chinese la. But wat to do? I never tak chinese ma~~~~~

Play pk 4 very long. Only now to realise i rather play but thor~~~~ My beloved priest~ Kekekeke~ What to do? 72 assassin in pk le. So pro.... kekekeke. Bleuh i'm crapping... Flee so lou ya lo... =.=;; Eq even worse...

SO sian lo! Some ppl so mean de wo~! Plain evil de... but tis few days i attitude ma so what to do. T_T

i ask ppl... is there a time where you REALLY really REALLY feel lik slapping someone. Oh man i feel it all the time nowadays... maybe wat that stupid ahma so is right. Cannot compare .... ah nvm...

Si mi tai ji!!!!!!!!!!! So siao one la now... at least tmr miss PE!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!! Anyway... must go read paper edi... =P
All the best to me and me and ME!!!!KEkekekeke.... =.=

2005-05-06T20:45:00.000-07:00

Well... as u can see we all at sch la~ duh =.= With rachel's phone which the quality lousy i think =P sori la~ Keke... suppose to be studying but we having fun. HAHA. erm next to me ish my dear ahli~ while my sama's are below me =P

2005-05-04T01:43:00.001-07:00

Oh k! From the left, ah gong! Korkor and then jiejie. kekekeke~

And now tis boyboy... why they all so shy one.. herm.. =.=

2005-05-04T01:43:00.000-07:00

yay! My two sama's! Eileen sama and rachel sama!!!!!!!!!!!

And now tis boyboy... why they all so shy one.. herm.. =.=

2005-05-03T01:41:00.000-07:00

weird ppl...

And now tis boyboy... why they all so shy one.. herm.. =.=

2005-05-03T01:39:00.000-07:00

Revenge is sweet~

Yepyepyep, and tis is my dear korkor~ Stupid one la he, always bully me de T_T So now revenge~

2005-05-03T01:38:00.000-07:00

Shy ppl~ LOL

Next is tis 2 shy boys from last yr class =P if they see me post tis will sure kill me de...

2005-05-03T01:37:00.000-07:00

Smileeee~

Tis is my rachel-samaaa!! ^^ and me. Her hamster =P

2005-05-03T01:35:00.000-07:00

Yeps girls rule!

yaya tis is us girls! =P Starting from the left, its mama, then moi, then my eileen-sama then my rachel-sama! ^^

2005-05-01T23:19:00.000-07:00

Yesterda, Ah ma sharana tell me disney channel got the tigger movie. So i watch the tigger movie! So touching wo... I cried at the end =X The movie so sweet lo~~~~~
I remember the song at the end... Goes something like... "When you are lost and cold and all alone, just think of your friends, the ones who care, and your heart will lead you home" Sob... so sweet... so touching so... T_T So NICEEEEEEEEE! Anyway.. all those crap i said in the last blog. Weell... was pretty down then. But now i'm fine k ^^ ANyway again... one thing the priest said in church last time.. keeps reciting in my head... i kinda try to quote k... "And as blood streams down his face, he turns to you and smiles and says, ' I love you'" SOB!!!!!!!!! Think bout it mak me wan cry... almost cried in church when he said that though... =.=;; why i always crying de ah? Been thinking alot since my last blog upgrade... But truth has finally found its way to me and i'm finally alright again ^^

2005-04-30T01:12:00.000-07:00

So as i just sit and home, in my bed and think...
People will do ANYTHING to make me feel like a 1st class idiot... anything at all. No matter how much i care... show concern... but wats the use? When in the end... all they do i just STAB ME IN THE BACK! That's right! Kick me and throw me aside... hurt me in every possible way...ep yep yep... that's wat life is all about. Trusting others... bleuh. What crap?!
No use now... have decided on my own.. i shall keep to myself. What's the use of letting others know my feelings? Would they care? WOULD THEY?!
Yep yep yep... hurt.. is wat i am. No use trying to care 4 them.. they always end up making you feel like the criminal... uh huh.. now i hav to try and convince myself... I know there is someone watching over me. And for that i'm grateful.. As i try to do the same. And yet... failures after failures... heartbreak after heartbreak... seriously... am i really needed in tis world? I wish i could just fade away... haix... feel lik jumping... if u get my drift. Yeps peeps... lets leave this cruel world...

2005-04-28T20:34:00.000-07:00

Kekekekekeke~~~ Half day half day!!!!!!!!!! So happy! =P The somemore next monday is public holiday~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Ohohohohoho~ Joy to the world, Miss gun is dead!!.... erm... just kidding. I dun wish her dead! Oh-kay i'm innocent. She's well and alive and... bleuh, i'm crapping again.. =P
These past few days... nothing exciting happened in my life =.=;;
Oh and by the way.... STUPID LO! They say our sec 3 is this June hols! HELO!!! I have church camp AND guilds camp lO! Wa piang... wan me to go insane issit?! Then tis coming june hols will not be a holiday... more like everyday got camp de... hope it clashes... kekekekek~ Then can get excused from it... sigh... tung ku ku la... =.=;;
Where got so lucky de? My luck ish terrible de wo~
Hmm... lets see, where shd tis cupid go to next? gg... lets see, ahli and her boyboy... ppl say got ppl like her boyboy le... but...................
I WONT ALLOW IT!
Whoever goes between them has to face up to me! *Evil crackle*
Let tis be a warning to everybody~ Kekekekeke...

2005-04-24T18:03:00.000-07:00

So here i am at home... missing school. What to do? I can hardly speak =.=;; Ppl tok to me and i cant answer. Onli can either shake head, nod head or something =.=... so terible. Feel so weak le... cant even move.. sob sob! Feels lik i've swalloned gallons and gallons of sand... suxs suxs suxs!!! Having trouble breathing >< My nose feels lik its gonna drop off any second and its also flooding... bleuh.
These few weeks has been nothing but trouble and not what it all cracks up to be.. lets see, all the emotions i have been experienceing and NOW is also experiencing also...
Lik, sad, hurt, guilt, anger, pissed, weak, restless, helpless, sick, dam dam dam dam dam dam dam confused, breathless and many many many more... which are too much for little old me to handle so i shall just stop or i may get even more confused and everything =.=
Anyway... these few days... weeks perhaps... i have been acting nothing but a bitch and a half.. i've been giving attitude to almost anybody and everybody who crossed my path. Including my parents =.=. Issit part of my teenage growing up period or am i just under stress?
Pysically i have to deal with my sickness which is soaking my energy as the minutes passes. While mentally, i'm having many arguments with my own self and heart. Emotionally, i can't control how i act and feel now. Feels lik some thing took control of my body and....... i cant control it at all.. sob sob!
Oh btw, it is NOT, i repeat, NOT, PMS. I am not having it ok... bleuh..
Lemme go doctor now... byez

2005-04-21T04:15:00.000-07:00

Haha! The stupid anger come conflict management... so funny wo! The ppl were so dam sofisticated and proper and dignified and all... english also so pro... abit lik ms gun >< EEEE!!! kekekekeke... but the man really was interesting la. so many stories to tell us. Veri interesting... although it did end kinda late... no time to study.. but HACK LA!!! kekeekek! Anyway... the stupid 2.4 la... my poor friends. ah gong, ah ma, korkor, jiejie they all... the whole group la basically. all fail le. so poor thing. but i think i'll fail also. so who cares? Hehehehe. Gomen... siao edi. =P At first so pissed lo... so dam jealous. not going to tell y though.. =P ohohohhoho~ anyway... now can liao la... after that course... must be cool and calm and blah...
Bleuh...
ANyway!!!! *squeals* I saw the most kawaii thing EVERRRRRRRR!!!!!! Omg omg omg! The serene think i siao lo so she hit my on the head... sobbb!!!! T_T...
Anyway! It was LiKe, Ahli and her boy BOY!!! >< Then then then! He lik stand behind her and anD!!! EEEEEEEEE!~!!!!! Sori siao edi... cannot explain much also =P
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As realization sinks to the depths of my heart...

2005-04-20T01:38:00.000-07:00

Yesterday got shocking news.... shocking of all shocking news... bleuh... veri confused... my heart, mind and soul is telling me it cant be true... its totally wrong.. it wont happen and i wont allow it to!!!!! I dun care! And yet... the other part of my is saying that i cant go against science... i mean... bleuh!! Anyway... the truth still hasn't sinked into me yet! Ok... say something else.... oh ya! Today those son of b*ches and b*stards... bleuh. How dare they keep throwing stuff at papa ah rene and me... almost exploded lo. i cant believe papa actually shouted at them...ah rene also.. power sia... i almost scolding them the F WORD!!! Bwakakakak... i dun care i wan to complain.. they did so much more. But if i continue i'm veri sure that my bloodpressure will skyrocket to pluto... pif... next stupid thing. What anger management 4 tmr... 2.30 till 5.30!!!! i mean!!! Wat the... hell!!! Pif... they wan to do some anger management... I'LL SHOW THEM ANGER!!! Kekekeke.... siao edi wo...=P

Day turned darkest night...

2005-04-18T01:14:00.000-07:00

Today was lik... a totally wow wow wow and huh huh huh day. keke... not sure wat i mean either =P well... today i did standing broad jump. My score shocked me equally as it shocked my friends... i got 195! 4 TWO tries i got 195! Totally far out! keke.. happy with myself. but poor poor poor ahli they all le.. siao one... they fail. i can't believe it lo. i thought they sure pass 2.4. actually if i run 2.4 also sure fail de wo. at least when i Do fail, i will hav my friends to run with again =X kekekeke... then.. the most shocking thing happened... heard from my friend someone lik me. Tis ah... i duno le. Now veri confused. got weird things to think about u know... got alot of problems associated to tis problem also. but maybe its just a rumor so i shdn't really care at all. Keke.. and now.. come home. SIAO ONE LO! My msn got problem. duno wat the hell is wrong with it though. Sob sob... then as usual they all blaming me lo! Fine la! i always get blamed la. always my fault de la! hate tis... just because i on the com almost 24/7 doesn't mean i install weird things lo. Besides. i play all day de lo. cant be me... but always blame me. Is tis fair? Unserved... justice. Blah... my sister so mean to me woooo!!! She is the most terrible person that I ever had the displeasure of meeting... so there. hmph. siao one la my msn!!!! Sob sob sob...

Insane life~

2005-04-17T03:00:00.000-07:00

Kekekek! Today was wild wild sia! Duno why ppl go siao wan go pk me de.. sob sob. Kor u hurt me wo! almost died! =P Heng kill u before u kill me. Bwakakakak~ Anyway... picked up a very nice phrase in church today ^^ *Through his wounds, you are healed* Nice ne? Veri ver nice! Ohohoho... actually do nothing much la onli sit at the com and play play play play... kekekeke~~~ (addicted to ro but wat can u do bout it? =P) Mama said during mid yrs i cannot use the computer wooo!!! SOB... i sink deep into the darkness of heart... without com how to survive?!?!?! keke... can la. Crapping abit here. I not THAT addicted =P

Totally...

2005-04-14T03:36:00.000-07:00

A new day begins... my blog is about my dark life in this world... kinda hard for someone lik me who is usually cheerful and all to be around dark. but everything about this week is so wrong. As my heart totally sinks into eternal abyss...